I’d like to share a brief story of how I suffered from insecurities from teenage years till adulthood.
Back then I did things to seek the approval of people and compensated myself with the thought that my good acts would make them favour me. In doing so, I removed getting’s God acknowledgement and approval from the equation. Subsequently, I felt rejected and unworthy, regardless of what I did.
Worse, I wasn’t aware of any of this.
“The ability to take an honest look into your life without any attachment to it, being right or wrong, good or bad.”Debbie Ford
I strongly believe that one advantage of knowing God and prioritising his voice instead of people’s is a clearer awareness of your shortcomings and a recognition of His help, always. I realized that if you don’t know God intimately, you won’t know yourself and will most likely be terribly confused by life circumstances.
It was easy for David to face Goliath because he knew the challenge he faced was not bigger than the God he served. His age and size were enough to discourage him, but David knew God for himself. David understood clearly what defined his ability was not necessarily his own size but the size of God. He was small but God was big.
Take an ‘honest look’ into your life. What defines you, what you can do and how far you can go? Is it people’s opinions of you or the capacity of God in you? Nothing in life should define you outside God. If you allow that to happen you will always find yourself lacking somehow; inadequate, unqualified and unworthy.
Stop valuing yourself based on your background, your level of education, your chain of connection/influence (your network), your country of residence, etc, but choose to see yourself purely from the perspective of scriptures.
Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.2Tim 2:15 (MSB)
Just like David, you too can constantly be aware of God’s presence and power in your life, and boast in that. Work towards living a life that He, first and foremost, would be proud of.
Examine yourselves, whether ye be in Faith, prove your own selves, know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobate.2 Corinthians 13:5 (KJV)
You are not what people say; you are who God says you are.